Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Life story drawbacks

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An old man life story
Life story drawbacks

Welcome to my blog posts of, Life story drawbacks
Let me first of all say to you, welcome to my blogs my dear readers. You are all welcome to browse and take part in the discussions that follow.
As you all know every one of us has a story to tell and so have I, and this old man life story is my story.
Life story drawbacks -
So, I have decided to tell you my own life story and my drawbacks, which one can call laments for want a better word to describe my feelings. I am writing my story so that while I am writing it I may remember what I have been through, you see, while I am writing my life story now I am in my late fifties, and therefore I am in the later part of my life span. I know that am old enough and therefore experienced, but I still have felt so inadequate and frustrated lately, for not being able to reach out and make happen, what I wanted so desperately to happen. And this is one of the reasons, or perhaps the most important reason, why I have started to write my own life story here. Although I have felt so many other times before that feeling of being inadequate during my life, which I believe it has been all because; I have been unlucky as was put in a disadvantaged position when I was young, and for that reason I was not able to learn and better myself to a satisfactory standard, which otherwise I would have been able to achieve if I had the chance, so, these are my life story and laments.
For those lost chances I can’t blame anybody, and I can’t even blame my mother for putting me in such disadvantaged position, because she was forced from disastrous and tragic events beyond her control. So I have come to the conclusion that I can only blame Fate, because it struck a terrible blow to our family when I was very young.
Therefore I believe that if in my younger years I had been in a position to go to school at least for a few more years, or perhaps as long as my capacity to learn was used to the maximum; then I could have learned whatever they teach at school, and at the same time as I would have been in a social environment, and so, I would have been able to improve my social and communication skills while I were at school, those skills which are so important to communicate with the rest of the community nowadays.
Therefore, if I had acquired those social skills, I would have been accepted socially easily, and I would have felt happier with myself, instead of feeling left out from the main stream, concerned and isolated.
You see; if I would have had a chance to go to school longer, then I would have learned more when I was young, and from this extra education I could have been more successful later on in my life, because I could have used my acquired knowledge, and those social skills which I never had the chance to learn then. And therefore, I could have ripped more and better rewards from within this society that we are living in nowadays, which seems to me that it is more and more demanding in this social respect.
Therefore this is my life story and laments that I am lamenting today, I am lamenting it because those social skills that I have been talking about must be learned when one is young, so that they may and will become part of oneself.
As I have said already, I have come to blame my fate for most of my short comings and pains. Because I believe that when I was born, I was born with a good chance to live a better life; but it was not to be. So now if you happen to read my life story, you may very well ask. Why is it that I am telling you only sad stories? Is it possible that in my whole life, I had so many sad happenings and not any happy ones?
Well I should say here that I have had a few happy happenings, but if I had to tell you about my happy happenings they would be so few and very boring indeed, and nobody could or would be interested to hear them anyhow.
So, I would like to talk now most of all, about those happenings that have affected my life in a way, one could say that they have made me struggle during my life.
You my reader may think that it is meaningless to write down all this useless stuff, as nobody might be willing to read it or get any benefit from it: But I am thinking that if my writings survive in a hidden corner just for a generation or two, and even if my writings are written poorly, as my English written skills are not the best at the present time. But when sometime will be past, then whoever would be reading my writings will find them more interesting, because life was so different in the old days that I lived, as I have started to live my life long before the great changes of nowadays.
And if what I am writing is going to be useless anyhow, I will do it just for practice, so that I would be able to improve my English language and also my writing skills. So that I could feel more confident within my own self, and therefore I would not feel to be in such a hopeless and desperate position; like that time when something happened to me at a certain stage of my life, but at that time I was not able to cope with it properly, and because I wasn’t able to cope that matter in my case became also very painful, because of what I wanted to reach and do but I wasn’t able to, here I am talking about a matter that was and indeed is a very delicate matter of personal nature.
But about my helpless and desperate feelings, I will write about them later on including what was it that caused me so much distress; But this distress has also made me come to a decision, which is that I have to improve myself in my lacking skills. So, now although I am getting old, I will try very hard if I can improve myself, so that, my improvements may still help me in my later years to reach where I have failed now.
Therefore by writing my story, I will also help myself to improve my English and my communication skills, which after all they are the art of being able to write or to say, the right words at the right time with the right meanings; since saying meaningful and skilful phrases is just like when one writes them down.
So please, allow me to write a few things that I have gone through during my own life. I would like to write them; so that I could show you how hard life can sometimes be, since this applies particularly to me; because during my life so many things have changed since I was a child. Of course things will still keep changing nowadays and in the future, and very likely even faster than before, but now because we know of the coming changes we are able to accept them more easily than before, and therefore they will not seem that bad to us anyhow, because at least we believe that we know where we are going. This is the first part of my life story and laments. I believe that I have said enough in this post, so, see you in my next post where I am going to tell you about the very beginning of my life and my childhood problems; see you soon.

An old man life story
Life story drawbacks
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